4/09/2005
Maybe the world won't accept me. Who knows, maybe they aren't ready. But, is that any reason to just shove me away? Distant... I wasn't always; I am now because of the people who never have, and probably never will accept me. I tried; I could have won if I were someone else... but I'm not. I am me, and that is clearly the way it's going to stay. Remember, I tried to belong... maybe I will one day... no. No room for people like me; I am too much of an outcast. One of these days, all the people I know will become rougher; the places I recognize will fall, only to keep me away. You, as well, won't be needing me. So, let me be... I'm myself, the number one outcast with no friends. Know something? Maybe I like it better... well, even if I don't, I'll get used to it... they've made up their minds that they don't want me, so I'll leave them all... It's time to leave, before I disappear... _____________________________________________________________________________
The sun was nowhere in site… it was just grey… all grey. It was not very welcoming, but in all truth, how welcoming can a color so gloomy be? I used to think it couldn't be at all, but what did I know? I was a simple child, lost in world of eternal dreams. But the dreams would never come true. I wished and hoped and even prayed that they would, but they didn't. Because look at me now.
Darkness has won me over… inside and out. The path of righteousness has faded, along with my aspirations.
I am an outcast; cursed to wander by day, hide by night… never to show my face to another being. My identity was lost centuries ago… wilted like a rose, destined to stay away for the rest of time.
I don't want to care about who I am, or what my purpose is, but there's always been that sprouting seed deep inside my heart. I yearn for the facts… but I have to come out of isolation to get them. And I've been living in this state for so long, so how can I do it? It seems impossible…
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-The outcast of the undark.
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